2 more months

It will be another 2 months until we have any answers - but it will be a definitive one. The worst part of this being scheduled so far out, is that I feel like I still would have a chance to do a concombinant IVF cycle. Maybe it's a sign that I should? Crap - more time to second guess our choice.

I am still hoping I make it to the IF support group sometime soon - even after my traumatic experience yesterday. After a tear-filled drive home, I decided it was time to make an appointment with the therapist. A few weeks ago I called our clinic and asked for a recommendation, but I hadn't done anything past checking into insurance coverage. I called today and made an appointment ($150 AFTER insurance- WTF!). It's not for another month, but I think it will be good to talk to someone before everything else happens. I'm going on my own and I was hoping I could convince DH to go once and then schedule an appt to go together. I know I can get him to go with me, but it doesn't seem like he's very interested in going on his own.

This is the kind of luck I have

I finally decided to try out the support group I heard about in town. I get there, wander around the warehouse of a church with kids and adults running all over the place, and find the room empty and dark. My best guess is that it was canceled this week because of vacation bible school.

I suppose it's my own fault because I should have double checked (not sure who I would have double checked with...). All I've heard is the 1st and 3rd Mondays of the month. For the last 8 months whenever I've thought about going, or checked into seeing if they were still meeting they always were. Just not tonight.

What a waste of an hour.

Dr. RE, please don't steer us wrong

First off - thanks for the comments and reinforcement that I'm not crazy.

So we had the much anticipated appointment with Dr 2 yesterday. (anyone who has already been subjected to the vent on this may want to skip this blog entry) What a waste! First off, we didn't get called back until a half hour after our scheduled appointment and the nurse followed that up with asking why we were there. Didn't we discuss coordinate things with Dr RE's office? WTF?!? Not like DH didn't specify that when he made the appointment. There is a surgery involved - shouldn't it be expected that we'd want to discuss the details with the person performing the procedure?

So... a little over a half hour after that, the Dr actually came in and we had a semi-useless 5-10 minute conversation in the exam room. Granted we were irritated by the wait, but it just didn't feel like he was really listening to our questions. I guess I'm spoiled by our RE - it may be hard to talk to him in person, but at least the office is pretty good about answering voicemails.

It was a really disappointing visit and if Dr RE hadn't said that this was the Dr we should see (unless we wanted to go to NY), I think we'd be going to the University Clinic out of town. I've still considered that, but I'm tired of the waiting and uncertainty.

Anyway, I called Dr RE today to ask a couple last questions and ask how to handle getting the procedure scheduled, but he was out. That means tomorrow is the day. I'll have to make a decision and it is scaring the crap out of me. I'm so afraid of doing the wrong thing, even though we won't know what we should have done until this is all over. Hopefully, Dr RE will help validate our decision tomorrow.

At any rate, I hope we can get things scheduled soon and I hope the Drs find what we need. Please work, please work, please work.