So much for not getting my hopes up....

I have the same protocol and our chances of this next IVF working aren't great (yea, that's putting it optimistically). I know all this but today found out the clinic is switching my trigger and suddenly I've decided that's the magic change that's going to fix all our problems and make this work.

I don't even know why they are switching me to pregnyl from ovidrel this cycle (any ideas?) ... but for some reason it's increased my expectations. Someone please help me contain the crazy :) I'll be interested to see what the nurse says when I ask about the reason for the change!

I'm on vacation :)

I paid $4 to be able to connect to the wireless internet (the code works for the day, so not too bad)
It looks like it could start raining any second (scratch that. It's starting to sprinkle). And it's getting kind of chilly - guess I'm not going to work on my tan today...
I got blisters on both of my pinky toes yesterday on our walk along the beach (Our first full day here, really? I couldn't possibly trade in my sandals for the shoes I brought!)
I only have fleeting thoughts of work - I think a couple more days will cure me of that!

Color me happy :)

DH is done with his stuff today, so we're going to pack up and check into our "home base" on Kauai for the weekend. There is WAY too much for us to see before we move on to the Big Island. I think we'll have to come back sometime ;)

One year ago today

We got our diagnosis. Sometimes I think it hurts less but I think it is just different. It seems like whenever I think I'm dealing something new happens and it I feel the hurt all over again - almost like that day again.

One year of uncertainty,hope, and heartbreak. And we're getting ready to start the cycle all over again. Even though in my head I know this probably won't work, the hope is creeping back in. I hope that we're surprised and March 9, 2011 we're holding our very own proof that miracles happen.

Aloha!

I am getting excited because in a short time I will be on vacation in paradise. I cannot freaking wait. Work is sucky and I'm annoyed there all the time and I need to get away from everything. Why do I think I'll need a vacation from getting ready to go on vacation? I did a little packing tonight but will have to wait until tomorrow to finish up.

I'm close to the reaching day 10 of 30DS - I lost count because of my work trip an
d being lazy some. I will probably need to repeat quite a few days after we get back from vacation. Level 1 is still a little tough for me and Level 2 kicked my butt the last time I tried it.

AmandaMqn ( Hope is Ours )nominated me for the lovely Happy101 Award

When you receive the Happy 101 Award, you have to list 10 things that make your day and then list 10 blogs worthy of this award as well. Post a link to the blogs you nominate, and make sure you let them know that they have been nominated!

So my happy things are :
1) My beautiful 4 legged baby girl. It always makes me happy to see her so excited when I get home.
2 ) My two cats. Even though they like DH better, I still get some snuggles once in awhile.
3) VACATION!
4) My husband - he can take so many situations and say something to lighten the mood. I just wish I could do that for him.
5) We're celebrating our 5 year wedding anniversary this year. :)
6) My friends at work. I am lucky to have a couple girls to vent to, no matter how petty or annoying I am being.
7) My parents. Even if we don't get along all the time :)
8) Sunny days (and when it's light out before I get up in the morning and still light after I get home from work)
9) The first flowers in the spring.
10) How I Met Your Mother and The Office among other mindless TV - sometimes cuddling on the couch after work is just what you need!

I have to get to bed but I am going to REALLY try to finish this up tomorrow night.