MIA

I can hardly believe how long it's been since I've posted. For awhile I was trying to come up with something profound for my 100th post. That never happened. Instead I kind of took a break from blogging and even reading blogs.

There really isn't anything new. I think we're coming up on 3 months and from my standpoint we're no closer to resolution than we were... I might be angrier, more bitter, still sad.

My coworker that did IVF just as we were starting our first cycle is due next week. I sit right next to her and hear every conversation she has about how ready she is to be done being pregnant, what she's trying to get labor going, how she's going to ask for an induction date. It pretty much sucks.

I have another coworker and I think her ER will be next week. I so want this to work for her since she's older but then the jealousy comes into play. Why does she get to have another child at 40-something when we can't even have one (pitty party for one, please).

I've gone to acupuncture a few times and really like the acupuncturist but it's really just something to make it feel like I'm doing something even though we're not. I don't think it will really do what I want it to do (you know - I want it to give me super eggs so we can try IVF again). I'm going to have to back off on the frequency of my appts due to $$ - it's too bad because it's very relaxing.

On another note, I completed my first sprint tri over the weekend and I am insanely proud of myself. I didn't even come in last :P (not that I was speedy by any means). I've never been anything close to athletic. It was a lot of fun though and I'm looking forward to doing another - it's just too bad I can't convince myself that training is fun.