It's a Small World

I think I've mentioned before that I have a co-worker that recently started at the same clinic we are using. Well, it looks like I know another IRL member of the "club" (as she put it). I was in a meeting the other day and she announced that she was going to be missing work for Drs appointments because she is doing IVF! How crazy!

After our meeting, I decided to tell her that we're getting ready to start a cycle as well. It turns out that there was an IVF class the same afternoon as her SHG and she was able to attend. If she hadn't gotten into that class we would have both been in the class next week! It's been nice to have someone to talk to about things and the recent baby boom at work. She even let me read through the paperwork we'll have to sign when starting to cycle. The not so good part is that I got to see all her bruises the other day :( I am not looking forward to the injections and all the blood draws.

Dh and I are both getting very anxious for our class next week and I'm hoping I don't get my period early. I'll be perfectly happy with it coming on time (the day of our class) or a couple days later. Since we don't know our protocol or have a calendar it's been hard to plan for the holidays - or at least that's my excuse for being so impatient. I really just dislike the unknown!

I DO have questions!

LOTS and LOTS of them. The shear number and stupidity of the questions amaze me - they're not worth calling the Dr to ask them (let's face it -- I think the clinic would probably want to have me committed if I did call).

I would have thought that the appointment I already had would have been a good time/place to ask these crazy questions. Instead, when the Dr asked if I had any questions I said "Not yet". WHAT?!? It seems I lose brain function when sitting on an exam table with no pants on. What didn't I ask? (I'm only adding the ones that don't make me look crazy and paranoid)

• What kind of chance he thinks we have for a successful cycle
• If there is anything I can do to help the cycle be successful
• I have a few questions about exercise - what and how much he thinks is ok
• When we can start a cycle and how long it would take (aka would we be done before Christmas) --- this was a big one-How didn't I ask that?
  

Anyway, the anticipation of the SHG was much worse than the actual experience. I'm assuming I'll start to get over the whole 'RE being a man' thing. I think I'm making progress on that front.

We talked with the person in the financial dept and have our IVF class scheduled. Assuming my body cooperates, I will get my period around the day of the class - hopefully that means we can start then and not have to wait until the end of Nov!

All excited for nothing

I don't really know what I was expecting to happen but I thought it would be something. Instead, I've scheduled the IVF labs, the SHG/mock transfer (I'll be honest - this does not sound like one bit of fun), and am waiting for the person in the insurance/financial dept to call me back. Once we meet with her, we will be able to schedule the IVF class - or someone will tell us when it is. Then....we wait some more and might just be able to start something when my next cycle starts.

After 6 months of not being able to do anything, you would think I was used to it. Guess not. So at least for a little while longer I'll get to work out when and how I want and I'll keep taking the baby toxic antibiotic for my acne. Maybe I'll even get to a point where my pants fit comfortably again....

I could have done without the "symptoms"

No, I'm not having phantom symptoms. I'm not quite that delusional ;) However, I did spend most of today convinced that I will be starting my period any second. Not likely. That would not only make this the shortest cycle ever, but life just doesn't work that way. If anything, this cycle will drag on endlessly just because I am waiting for CD 1 so I can start testing. Who would have thought I'd welcome cycle 24 with open arms?

It seems so odd trying to read into all of the pre-period twinges when I've spend the last 6 months not caring. My period could come and go as it pleased, because I knew there would be no miracle pregnancy (I hope for a miracle pregnancy but am realistic enough to know it will be assisted my medical professionals! So we'll save the phantom symptoms for the 2ww after an IVF cycle.)

So here I am. Waiting impatiently, hoping for a short cycle so that I can be poked and prodded. It still seems so surreal. I've spent so long preparing to hear the worst, that I am having to readjust to the possibility of having a child that is genetically connected to both DH and myself. And you know what? I am FREAKED out that having a baby is a possibly again. Let's not forget the poking and prodding and injections, oh my!

Wonderful, Awesome, Fantastic, Good News

We called the lab director this afternoon since we hadn't heard anything since the surgery early yesterday. He was surprised that Dr2 hadn't called us yet.
Anway, he had good news for us - We have what we need to do IVF! Now we just need to call the RE to find out where we go from here.

Of course, I can't just sit around an enjoy this. I'm already worrying about the timeline. Will I be able to visit family around Christmas? If I'd need a lot of monitoring around then, should be postpone the cycle by a month? Should we wait so we can have a spring baby?

Ok, just kidding about the last one. Who would have thought that after all of this and almost 2 years, I'd still be hoping for a due date in a specific season. I need my head examined!

Off to be giddy! :-D

Ring Phone Ring!

It's been over 6 hours and no results yet. My guess means it's not good news (if it was really good news we would have known before leaving the hospital), and that makes me afraid to call. Plus, I don't know which office to call to ask. So....I guess I'll wait and see if someone calls us? Our RE does procedures out of the office once a week, so maybe he's going to call? AHHHHHHHH.

5 days and other very random thoughts

Yikes! I have no idea how I'm supposed to be able to concentrate at work for the next few days. thank goodness it was a 4 day week this week!

On another note, a coworker friend of mine of mine has an appointment with our RE in the next couple weeks. I am so excited for her because I don't feel like her Ob/Gyn was able to really figure out/give them the help they need. While they've been letting things happen or trying much longer than we have, their initial tests with her Dr were all ok. I really hope seeing a specialist is all they need.

I also want them to like him.... I recommended the clinic and like our Dr there - but - you could say he has a quirky sense of humor. I'll feel bad if they don't feel like they had a good experience.

Praying that there are at least 2 more miracles to come soon! My hopes have gotten up again for next week, but I can't help it. I just hope we can beat the odds - lots of odds. I want to find what we need to find and then have IVF work. That's not too much to ask - right?