Can't live with it - can't live without it. Hope creeping in increases the potential for extreme emotional disappointment.
Hope and excitement are starting to creep in for our DE cycle. I'm still a little disappointed (ok a lot disappointed and still very angry and sad) that MY eggs don't work. I'm also sad at some of the/my physical characteristics we had to give up in order to find a donor we liked who was willing to donate this year.
It hurts to know that my baby (if we're so lucky) could never have brown eyes, since our donor blue eyes. Even though we don't know that he/she would anyway, it's the fact that the possibility isn't there.
There is no doubt in my mind that I will love any baby we get with my whole heart - I just hope some of the sadness that it can't happen the way it's "supposed" to goes away.
{eight year well child}
8 years ago
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Oh honey, I hate when people tell me they know what I'm feeling, but I truly understand. Giving up your genetic code is a really hard thing, and I have dwelled on the donor egg/adoption more than is reasonable for someone who can't even afford it. Infertility bites the big one. I am thinking of you though, and I really hope all this pain and sadness will fade when you are holding your baby in your arms. xoxoxoxo
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