Hmmm...

So DH and I went to see Julie & Julia today (FYI there could be some spoilers - I'll try to avoid it). It just made me wonder just how much IF has changed me. I don't think it's a movie that is supposed to make you cry and yet my eyes teared up at 3 places. The 3rd was the fight with some watery eyes.

The other 2 places were actual deep breathing, breath catching, barely managed not to sob tears. So the questions for those of you who've seen it are:

1) Can you pinpoint which parts of the movie caused this insane response?
2) What was your reaction?
3) Have you experienced IF?

I am genuinely curious to see how "sensitive" this experience has made me. I wonder, if things had gone as planned, would I even have noticed these 2 parts of the movie? Maybe there are other parts that I didn't notice because of experiences I haven't had.

I had a similar experience with the movie Up. Although, I didn't have the tears my pregnant co-worker had, it was very thought provoking and prompted an interesting discussion between DH and myself. Yes, we could decide to live child-free and be ok but it isn't what we want right now. DH pointed out that soon our friends would be done having babies and that would probably make it easier (a couple of them are already and the others are pregnant with or have had #1).

I am sure he is right. Once friends are done being pregnant and having babies the jealousy may not be as raw - but it won't be anything that goes away. It makes me think back to a conversation we had about month 4 of TTC, when I asked if DH would ever be ok with using a donor and he said no. I don't remember what the verdict was about adoption. I do remember we said that maybe, if we couldn't have children, we would just spoil our friends' kids and make them all jealous with the vacations we could take. We wouldn't need daycare money!

How things change with experience. If only we could be that naive again!

Anyway - I wish everyone a wonderful Labor Day weekend! (and I really am curious about your take on Julie & Julia)