Wouldn't want this to be too easy, would we?

My major paranoia for this cycle is that I'm going to be over suppressed. I've also been a little worried because I haven't had a withdrawal bleed since I stopped birth control. The clinic doesn't require it and says some people don't have one. However, the first 2 cycles I did and it was always by my baseline appt.

Enter my baseline appointment today and SURPRISE - wait - can I beg for no surprises? I don't like them. I am not a fan of surprises when it comes to IF, IVF, etc.

Anyway, the u/s went fine and I planned to start stims Monday per my calendar. And then this afternoon I got the call. The voicemail from the clinic that they wanted to touch base.

This doesn't happen. I have NEVER gotten a call after a monitoring appt. They only call if something is changing. This means that pretty much all calls are less than ideal. Today this means my estrogen is high. No cyst found at the u/s, so I don't know what would cause this? It's not just a little high either - it's 300 something and should be around 50 or 60. So I get a recheck Friday and if it's still high, I'm not sure what we'll do. I know I won't get to start stims Monday. Will I just stay on lupron a little longer? Will I stop lupron and have to start everything over later?

As much as I would have liked to know the what if's I decided not to ask. I am trying very hard not to think too far ahead. Stay positive that Friday's levels will be in range and all that jazz. Who am I fooling? I'm completely worried. Part of me would rather cancel everything now because it's not "right". I don't want to start a cycle that already has a road block. I don't want to stay on lupron longer because I'm still afraid of it affecting my follicle count once I do start stims.

I just want something to go right for once damnit.