One more thing I never imagined doing

Last night DH and I went to see a musical put on by a college nearby. I was really excited to see it because it was a musical I was part of in High School. Plus, we never do anything on Friday night - so yay for us getting out of the house :P

Anyway, this brought up the issue of when to do my injections. I'm supposed to do the injections around the same time each night - I've picked 8:30 because I'm home and I go to bed pretty early. The problem is that the musical didn't start until 7:30 and wouldn't be over until about 10:30.

What else could I do besides pack up the meds and take them with? The original plan had been to pick a bathroom stall during intermission and be covert. That would have been great, but I got kind of creeped out thinking I might drop something on the floor - and I felt bad because there was a big long line.

"Luckily" there was a little chair and a counter that I could use... too bad it was opposite a mirror and everyone in line walked past me. So yes, if you walked past a woman with a syringe and 1.5" needle and a bunch of vials last night, that was me. And in case it was scary, I got to switch the needle out for one that was 0.5". The big shots won't start until later this week.

Oh, and just for the record. All this IF stuff is a freaking pain in the ass and inconvenience. I am sick of missing work and planning my life around Drs appointments and injections. I can't even go for a jog when I want to because I'm supposed to keep my activity to a brisk walk. I can't figure why it seems so much worse this time around.

So much for not getting my hopes up....

I have the same protocol and our chances of this next IVF working aren't great (yea, that's putting it optimistically). I know all this but today found out the clinic is switching my trigger and suddenly I've decided that's the magic change that's going to fix all our problems and make this work.

I don't even know why they are switching me to pregnyl from ovidrel this cycle (any ideas?) ... but for some reason it's increased my expectations. Someone please help me contain the crazy :) I'll be interested to see what the nurse says when I ask about the reason for the change!

I'm on vacation :)

I paid $4 to be able to connect to the wireless internet (the code works for the day, so not too bad)
It looks like it could start raining any second (scratch that. It's starting to sprinkle). And it's getting kind of chilly - guess I'm not going to work on my tan today...
I got blisters on both of my pinky toes yesterday on our walk along the beach (Our first full day here, really? I couldn't possibly trade in my sandals for the shoes I brought!)
I only have fleeting thoughts of work - I think a couple more days will cure me of that!

Color me happy :)

DH is done with his stuff today, so we're going to pack up and check into our "home base" on Kauai for the weekend. There is WAY too much for us to see before we move on to the Big Island. I think we'll have to come back sometime ;)

One year ago today

We got our diagnosis. Sometimes I think it hurts less but I think it is just different. It seems like whenever I think I'm dealing something new happens and it I feel the hurt all over again - almost like that day again.

One year of uncertainty,hope, and heartbreak. And we're getting ready to start the cycle all over again. Even though in my head I know this probably won't work, the hope is creeping back in. I hope that we're surprised and March 9, 2011 we're holding our very own proof that miracles happen.

Aloha!

I am getting excited because in a short time I will be on vacation in paradise. I cannot freaking wait. Work is sucky and I'm annoyed there all the time and I need to get away from everything. Why do I think I'll need a vacation from getting ready to go on vacation? I did a little packing tonight but will have to wait until tomorrow to finish up.

I'm close to the reaching day 10 of 30DS - I lost count because of my work trip an
d being lazy some. I will probably need to repeat quite a few days after we get back from vacation. Level 1 is still a little tough for me and Level 2 kicked my butt the last time I tried it.

AmandaMqn ( Hope is Ours )nominated me for the lovely Happy101 Award

When you receive the Happy 101 Award, you have to list 10 things that make your day and then list 10 blogs worthy of this award as well. Post a link to the blogs you nominate, and make sure you let them know that they have been nominated!

So my happy things are :
1) My beautiful 4 legged baby girl. It always makes me happy to see her so excited when I get home.
2 ) My two cats. Even though they like DH better, I still get some snuggles once in awhile.
3) VACATION!
4) My husband - he can take so many situations and say something to lighten the mood. I just wish I could do that for him.
5) We're celebrating our 5 year wedding anniversary this year. :)
6) My friends at work. I am lucky to have a couple girls to vent to, no matter how petty or annoying I am being.
7) My parents. Even if we don't get along all the time :)
8) Sunny days (and when it's light out before I get up in the morning and still light after I get home from work)
9) The first flowers in the spring.
10) How I Met Your Mother and The Office among other mindless TV - sometimes cuddling on the couch after work is just what you need!

I have to get to bed but I am going to REALLY try to finish this up tomorrow night.

30 Day Shred Level 1 Day 2

I guess I must really not want to clean. This is the first time in about 2 years that I've managed to do more than one day of the shred :) AND I opened a can of paint dated 9/08 and got a base coat down on one wall of the basement! Only a few more to go (it's not a rectangular room so there are more than 4 walls).

It really wasn't too bad of an evening. I just have to wonder why I can't get off my butt when DH is around.

Just haven't had much to say

There hasn't been much going on lately. Work is nuts and it's stressing me out (which for some reason makes me want to Internet shop....leaving me no time for blogging).

DH left for his work trip this morning so it's been kind of a long day. At least I can say it's been somewhat productive. I got in 30 min on the treadmill and did started the 30 day shred (again! I'm really going to get to level 2 this time, I swear). This leaves me about 2 weeks to lose the 20 lbs I've been talking about losing since last April(?). Riiiiight. I'm going to settle for being able to squeeze into my shorts and swim suit.

I even worked in a trip to the mall since the snow storm got pushed back a couple hours. Any recs for a nice, flattering pair of running capris? Pretty soon it's going to be too warm for pants but still too cool for shorts...
I bought a pair of Under Armour Heat Gear, but I'm not 100% sure I'll have the guts to wear them out of the house. They make me feel very naked and I'm what you would call "curvy" - if I was having a skinny day and you were feeling nice. It's hard to imagine anyone not being traumatized by looking at my jiggling ass and thighs as I run.

While I was wandering around trying to find more stuff that I don't really need, I had the pleasure of running into my RE and his family. (Here "running into" really means I looked up and saw him from 15 feet away and felt the need to hide. I am pretty sure that he wouldn't be able to pick me out of a line up.) For whatever reason that was just the motivation I needed to head home. Or that combined with the fact that spending Sunday morning at the mall is the place to be if you're pregnant or have children - or are pregnant and have children. I have to say, I felt a little out of place being solo.

I guess it's a good think the next few weeks will be busy. Less time to be left alone to my own devices :D Plus, I start BC next cycle! Normally I wouldn't want to have my period during my super cool beach/hiking vacation, but this time I'll take it! I'm trying very hard not to get my hopes up. It seems like we have such slim odds of getting any embryos to transfer and if we do, I just can't picture having enough luck that one would stick. Hopes a bitch!