No, I'm not having phantom symptoms. I'm not quite that delusional ;) However, I did spend most of today convinced that I will be starting my period any second. Not likely. That would not only make this the shortest cycle ever, but life just doesn't work that way. If anything, this cycle will drag on endlessly just because I am waiting for CD 1 so I can start testing. Who would have thought I'd welcome cycle 24 with open arms?
It seems so odd trying to read into all of the pre-period twinges when I've spend the last 6 months not caring. My period could come and go as it pleased, because I knew there would be no miracle pregnancy (I hope for a miracle pregnancy but am realistic enough to know it will be assisted my medical professionals! So we'll save the phantom symptoms for the 2ww after an IVF cycle.)
So here I am. Waiting impatiently, hoping for a short cycle so that I can be poked and prodded. It still seems so surreal. I've spent so long preparing to hear the worst, that I am having to readjust to the possibility of having a child that is genetically connected to both DH and myself. And you know what? I am FREAKED out that having a baby is a possibly again. Let's not forget the poking and prodding and injections, oh my!
{eight year well child}
8 years ago
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Ugh! I had a couple of cycles like that before we started IVF and during our clinic enforced "break cycles" in between IVF cycles. They were the worst!
I hope in your case the sympoms are real and you are suprised with that beautiful BFP and miracle baby. And if not, I know you will do great with the whole IVF bit. You can do it!!
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